Week 42

I haven't wrote in two weeks anything. I guess I have just too good memory.
But about this week. I'm really pissed because I learnt that I won't me able to make the game I've been working on as my project here. I can't drag my computer to here, and I'm not allowed to work at home.
I need to figure out a new project that I will be able to make at starter workshop.
On Tuesday we made self-knowledge "exercises" but I didn't learn anything new.
I already know I'm selfpitifull and no one has ever said anything nice about me. :D
On Wendesday others made really delicious squash shoup. I'm totally going to make it one day myself too at home. They also made "ghosts" from eggs but...

I'm disappointed that we won't plan our halloween party until Monday. I was expecting something like that but still. I don't care anymore. I was the only ona that wanted to have a party so of course it doesn't matter. I bet I'll be all alone celebrating halloween at my home. Well... It's not new so I'm used to it. No probs!

Week 40

The first two days I was sick. No much learning about anything. On wednesday we went camping with starter workshop...ers. I was wating it but since I'm rock hard pessimist I knew something would go not as planned. I noticed that I'm alone and always will be, behind everybody. I'm just an annoyance to people. At least when we started fishing, I got a tiny fish. I felt sad when it got killed. It could have been freed since it was so small and young.

At least the marshmallows were delicious.

Week 39

Week 39.  Lots of talking, short days and new people. Those were the ingresients chosen to create this week in start workshop. But I accidentally on purpose added and extra ingredient to the concoction... Mystic black-gray-looking box! Wonder what's inside...

Week 38

It's week 38 at start workshop.
I feel like I've done nothing.  There has not been much happening but it's good thing. I don't feel stressed and I feel like there is time for everything I'm supposed to make though I sometimes feel frustrated with things I can't finish in one go/ day. Like with these folders we are making (I'm making a box but neverthless) I want to concentrate on it and just finish it!
But I'm learning patience and that's important for someone like me.

It's nice to work here with these people (at least for now, there will be two new faces coming here.) They let you do your things but there is two girls who always shout something stupid once in a while. A bit annoying but I need to come along with people! And they aren't bad.

For myself I should bring myself more up and be more social.. But I don't like being in groups. I want to get rid of my anti-socialness and get friends who won't abond me in a snap.