Week: I don't care

I keep forgeting this thing. If I somehow remember to write something down it's like a new jesus has been born. A miracle.  Haven't wrote anything in weeks again.
Last week was my last time working at art workshop. We had the last show to other workshopers. I didn't want other start workshopers there because I really don't like them.
At the wotkhop I lost my balance while dancing and stuff so I felt great. But you can't succeed always and what things that happened, happened. I can't change the past.

People here keep whining and swearing all the time. Can't they just shut up? I don't like people who can't see their own mistakes even when other people say about them Many times. They just blame others. I don't feel like I belong with them or trust them.
On Thursday one idiot couldn't leave the vacuum cleaner waiting for me Because I Didn't Ask.

Week 48

Finished my own project: drawing of one of the girls here starter workshop. I learned that when I daw hair, I should start from shadows, not to try and draw outlines. And never draw knitted scarfs again. Now I need to write a report from it and I can start thinking doing something else.  I'm glad it'd now over. It was much harder than I thought at first. I don't like the result but at least other workshopers like it.

On Thursday when I was at art workshop, whe had a "practice perfomance" and I actually did good in it. Today, on Friday I'm just wating to get home. So tired... I also nees to think how to developpe my flaws. Hm... Social anxiety and my emotions. I can't get so easily pissed of as I do now.

Week Number:Unknown

Whoop these weeks been so fast!
We had our halloween party. Boring and painful. I really would like to be much more energic but these people in start workshop are so... Blank and boring so I'm the same. We're not anything alike.

I've also been at Art Workshop and we've been making stuff for their act/play. I've helped with a simple dance choreogarph and suddenly my own dance! I'm really nervous... Thankfully these people don't know a thing about ballet. So when I screw up, I can play it cool.

Knowing that I'm a wimp but don't want to stop fills me with DETERMINATION.

Week 42

I haven't wrote in two weeks anything. I guess I have just too good memory.
But about this week. I'm really pissed because I learnt that I won't me able to make the game I've been working on as my project here. I can't drag my computer to here, and I'm not allowed to work at home.
I need to figure out a new project that I will be able to make at starter workshop.
On Tuesday we made self-knowledge "exercises" but I didn't learn anything new.
I already know I'm selfpitifull and no one has ever said anything nice about me. :D
On Wendesday others made really delicious squash shoup. I'm totally going to make it one day myself too at home. They also made "ghosts" from eggs but...

I'm disappointed that we won't plan our halloween party until Monday. I was expecting something like that but still. I don't care anymore. I was the only ona that wanted to have a party so of course it doesn't matter. I bet I'll be all alone celebrating halloween at my home. Well... It's not new so I'm used to it. No probs!

Week 40

The first two days I was sick. No much learning about anything. On wednesday we went camping with starter workshop...ers. I was wating it but since I'm rock hard pessimist I knew something would go not as planned. I noticed that I'm alone and always will be, behind everybody. I'm just an annoyance to people. At least when we started fishing, I got a tiny fish. I felt sad when it got killed. It could have been freed since it was so small and young.

At least the marshmallows were delicious.

Week 39

Week 39.  Lots of talking, short days and new people. Those were the ingresients chosen to create this week in start workshop. But I accidentally on purpose added and extra ingredient to the concoction... Mystic black-gray-looking box! Wonder what's inside...

Week 38

It's week 38 at start workshop.
I feel like I've done nothing.  There has not been much happening but it's good thing. I don't feel stressed and I feel like there is time for everything I'm supposed to make though I sometimes feel frustrated with things I can't finish in one go/ day. Like with these folders we are making (I'm making a box but neverthless) I want to concentrate on it and just finish it!
But I'm learning patience and that's important for someone like me.

It's nice to work here with these people (at least for now, there will be two new faces coming here.) They let you do your things but there is two girls who always shout something stupid once in a while. A bit annoying but I need to come along with people! And they aren't bad.

For myself I should bring myself more up and be more social.. But I don't like being in groups. I want to get rid of my anti-socialness and get friends who won't abond me in a snap.